Do you remember your first love? Your first day of school? Your first kiss? Your first attempt at living a sober lifestyle? The first time you surrendered your life to God? Your first child birth? Your first real life transition, retirement, divorce, death of a loved one?
On June 26th I will experience my first trip back home to Alabama: without my mother picking me up at the airport, taking me to Walmart so that I could buy what she calls “my healthy food”, my first time not living with her while I'm there, my first time trying to find someone to pick me up, first time asking someone if I could stay with them, first time not going to her employers house with her, first time not going to church with her (or preaching) at her church, my first time going to her gravesite, my first time being around my family in Alabama and she’s not there with me laughing, eating and socializing, first time she’s not waking me up cause she’s rattling every pot or pan in her house as she prepares for work, my first time she won’t be calling me asking me if I’m doing my exercise, first time I won’t sit on her porch with her and talking about her neighbor across the street and laughing hysterically.
As you could probably guess, I am having mixed emotions right now as many of you have already experienced yourself. Going through the anxiety, uncertainty, and nervousness of your FIRST is a part of the JOURNEY TO WHOLENESS. It may not feel good all the time, it may require complete trust in a power that is greater than yourself; but what matters most is that we don’t stay stuck. Utilize your support network: Pastor, family, life partner, friends, therapist, to assist you as you JOURNEY through your FIRST. Delaying it only proves to delay your healing, growing, moving, and prospering. Pray for me as I will continue to pray for you as I JOURNEY through my first. If you need someone to walk with you please contact me at: http: www.angelamalston.com or (860)457-1098.